poetic ramblings

"Journey of Happiness"

Sometimes I wonder
Just how did I
Get here?
I could have never
guessed that I could
be happy.
I thought I was
sentenced to be
the girl faking it.
The girl seeking out the
happiness that others
had.
The girl that continuously
sought out happiness
without fully knowing how to
look.
What I thought was happiness
was just a cloak of soulless hedonism.
I hadn't looked deep within
for the constant feeling
that was necessary, yet
out of reach.
Until, I made a change.
At the time it was unconscious.
I had simply decided to change locations.
Suddenly and ever so slightly,
my horizon changed.
I suddenly felt as
though I had all the
power in the world.
My old insecurities seemed to
slip away.
I was able to escape the
identity that I had somehow
foraged a way to create
and start
anew.
I got to find a way back
to my roots.
To the person I had always
known, but somehow
had left me far behind.
Because my spirit became
awakened
I was able to find true
inner peace and love.
I also finally
found someone who
respected and loved me
truly.
I have no other way to
describe it other
than I am truly
blessed and happy.
Inner peace and love
combined with someone who
can find beauty where
you can't 100 pecent
see all of it
is truly amazing.